hey me..
would you still recognize yourself
hey me..
would you still remember your friends
hey I..
are you still understand the people around you?



not anymore





I considered only
they have forgotten me ..

Best Of You

I’ve got another confession to make
I’m your fool
Everyone’s got their chains to break
Holdin’ you

Would you born to resist or be abused?
Is someone getting the best, the best of you
Are you gone and onto someone new?

I needed somewhere to hang my head
Without your noose
You gave me something that I didn’t have
But had no use
I was too weak to give in
Too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again
But I break loose
My head is giving me life or death
But I can’t choose
I swear I’ll never give in
No, I refuse


Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess

You'd die to heal
The hope that starts
The broken hearts
You trust, you must
Confess

I’ve got another confession my friend
I’m no fool
I’m getting tired of starting again
Somewhere new

Yes I did it and I'll do it again
It doesn't matter if I am your best friend
I don't think so
You're not that smart
Over and over it breaks my heart
The cycle continues time for your crime
The pain comes back in an ugly design
Her makeup smears
The tears that she cries
Over and over every night

Emotional swords slash my soul
And now the pain takes control
I think about you
I think about me
Think about the way that it used to be
I need a bottle
I need some pills
I need a friend
I need some thrills
A shoulder to cry on a friend to depend on
When life gets rough

Time and time again
You think about yourself before you think about me
Time and time again
You think about yourself before you think about me

It's like a fight every single day
It's always easy when you have it your way
Deep in my heart
In the depths of my soul
My selfish ways are out of control
I'm sorry that it comes down to this
I punch through the wall as I break my fist
The makeup smears
Tears that we cry
Over and over every night

You're so selfish
You're making me want to end this relationship
You're making me want to end this

Loving ties unwind
Lost time behind
Loving ties unwind
Lost time behind

ya Allah..


aku benar-benar Telah jauh darimu..



kini aku merasa aku sudah tidak mengenal diriku sendiri..




aku benar-benar Telah jauh darimu..


ya Allah

linkaran..

Saat ku terjebak dalam,,lingkaran
Bayangan gelap,,meruang tak bertepi,,
Tak berujung batas
Membuat aku tak kuasa ingin menentang

Jauh kini kusadari hidupku,,sungguh,,
Bersama engkau sangat berarti
Terasah godaan hidup,,namun kau masih di sisiku
Temani segala resah hatiku

Sekiranya aku bisa mimpi indah
Aku tak akan tersesat jauh
Sekiranya aku mungkin terlepas
Meski..beranjak pergi
Meninggalkan engkau sendiri

Sepatutnya aku telah,,terjatuh,,
Kini aku jauh lebih mengerti
Tak pernah aku merasa,,betapa naifnya aku
Apa yang harus kutinggalkan aku lupakan...



Pergi..bebas..lepas..

liFe is Like a Boat..

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

Far away, I'm breathing, as if I were transparent
It would seem I was in the dark, but I was only blindfolded

I give a prayer as I wait for the new day
Shining vividly up to the edge of that sea

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn!

But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

People's hearts change and sneak away from them
The moon in its new cycle leads the boats again

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong

And still the journey continues on quiet days as well
The moon in its new cycle shines on the boats again

I give a prayer as I wait for the new day
Shining vividly up to the edge of that sea

We are rowing the boat of fate, but the waves keep attacking us
But isn't that still a wonderful journey? Aren't any of them a wonderful journey?

I Dont need that Shit!!!

Theres no money
theres no possessions
Only obsession
I dont need that shit
Take my money take my obsession

I just want to be heard
loud and clear are my words
Coming from within man,,tell them what you heard!?
Its about a revolution
in your heart and in your mind
Till you find a conclusion

lost out in obsession,,
Diamond rings,,get you nothing but a life long lesson
And your pocketbooks stressing
Youre a slave to the system,,
working jobs that you hate.

for that shit you dont need,,
Its too bad the world is based on greed
Step back and see
Stop thinking about yourself
start thinking about!!


Theres no money theres no possession only Obsession

I dont need that shit!!

Take my money take my possession take my obsession

I dont need that shit!!

Because everything is nothing
And emptiness isnt everything..
This reality,,
is really just a fucked up dream!!
With the flesh and the blood that you call your soul
Flip it inside out its a big black hole
Take your money burn it up like an asteroid!!
Possession though youre never gonna feel the void
Take it away and learn your best lesson

The heart..
the soul..
the life..
the passion..


Present yourself
press your clothes,,comb your hair
And clock in?
You just cant win!! just cant win..
And the things you own,,own you :(

NaaaaaarrrrrrGgh!!!


Fuck your money
fuck your possession
fuck your Obsession
I dont need that shit

Money

possession

obsession



I dont need that shit!!

bnar2 membantu..

ini adalah lagu2 yg ad di playlist gw and intens gw dngerin akhir2 ini.

-Never let this go-paramore

-Never let this go-paramore

-Never let this go-paramore

-Never let this go-paramore


-Tiga titik hitam-Burgerkill

-Tiga titik hitam-Burgerkill

-Tiga titik hitam-Burgerkill

-Tiga titik hitam-Burgerkill

-Tiga titik hitam-Burgerkill


-My heart-paramore

-My heart-paramore

-My heart-paramore


-Broken-seether feat amy lee

-Broken-seether feat amy lee

-3 libras-aPerfect circle

-3 libras-aPerfect circle

-3 libras-aPerfect circle

-imagine-aPerfect circle

-Decode-paramore

Berhasil membunuh kekesalan and kesedihan gw yg menumpuk..


-Muak-

song's to heaven

Dia slalu memahami
apa yg dia hadapi
dia sangatlah mengerti
mgkin nanti semuanya tak kan seperti dulu..

waktu bisa saja slalu berlalu
teruz mengalir dan tak pernah memahami

tapi smua,yang terdalam
dan tak dapat tergantikan
hilang,,bersama dirinya

reff:
embun pagi yang selalu membasahi hari
tak kan pernah bisa sejukan hati ini
sampai kini ku tak dapat mempercayai
dirinya tak kan kembali,,

walau ku tahu dirinya kini telah pergi
kuterus berlari mencoba mengingkari
dirinya tla'h pergi


tak sempat terucapkan olehku
trima kasih atas smua yg telah dia beri

mungkin itu yang terdalam
tak kan pernah tersampaikan
selamanya..


reff:
embun pagi yang selalu membasahi hari
tak kan pernah bisa sejukan hati ini
sampai kini ku tak dapat mempercayai
dirinya tak kan kembali,,

walau ku tahu dirinya kini telah pergi
kuterus berlari mencoba mengingkari
dirinya tla'h pergi

another reff version#1:
tapi kini dia t'lah pergi,tak mungkin bersama lagi
dirinya tak'kan kembali,meninggalkan semua ini
ku tak dapat mempercayai
dirinya kini t'lah pergi
kini dia tlah pergi..

arr$lyric;Kodok
music by Shaliem..

ni lagu jd pas shari stelah kepergian bem siti,,
lagu ini g dedicated bwt beum siti n bokap gw,mereka yg selalu tanpa lelah untuk memberikan segalanya yg terbaik..
terkadang kita bru tesadar betapa bgitu besarnya arti kehadiran mereka setelah mereka tiada..

Bali..sixDay was open myMind or?

8 september..dmulai perjalanan gw ke pulau dewata,,tujuan & niat awal gw sii tuk btanding dsana, At least yaa sudaaalah hmmm"lg2 bkan giliran gw..
tp gpp,tujuan gw selanjutnya bkan itu kok(only god&me yg tw,mmm ad jg denk yg tw,but sutraalaah). . . .


. . . . .banyak hal yg gw lihat,dpet,n gw rasain selama ad dsana..yaa fun laah. . . .































tp skarang gw bner2 bingung harus ngapain. . . . .

Dalam Diluar diri

Kuingin waktu yg mengalir djalanku,,

dapat membawaku agar menjadi lebih baik,,

Kuingin setiap masa yg berganti di mataku..

dapat merubahku agar menjadi lebih baik,,

dan ku akan melakukannya,,

dengan menjadi diriku sendiri..

For remember,,guys.

At times life is wicked and I just can�t
see the light
A silver lining sometimes isn�t enough
To make some wrongs seem right

Whatever life brings
I�ve been through everything
And now I�m on my knees again

But I know I must go on
Although I hurt I must be strong
Because inside I know that many
feel this way

At times life�s unfair and you know
it�s plain to see
Hey God I know I�m just a dot in
this world
Have you forgot about me?

Am I hiding in the shadows?
Forget the pain and forget the sorrows

Am I hiding in the shadows?
Are we hiding in the shadows?

-Dont Stop Dancing -

Ketika semua bayang menjauh dari tubuh
Dan ketika semua angan enggan menyapa
Terbaring aku, terjebak aku
Di keheningan dalam ketiadaan

Kucoba cahayai ruang jiwa ini
Terus berharap dan terangi
Kucoba sembunyikan suara hati
Terus menampik dan berlari

Kutenggelam dalam kelam
Dan menjauh tanpa bayang
Kucoba menelan luka yang tak kunjung usai

Teriakan namamu
Dikesunyian hatiku
Meraba, merangkul suryamu
Dikehangatan jiwamu

Saat kebenaran tak lagi bermakna
Aku tersandar dan terdiam
Kemana akan kubawa diriku pergi
Semakin jauh, semakin rapuh

Lepaskan diri, jatuh membusuk
Biarkan aku, hilang .. Muak !

Terluka .. Aku .. Mencari

yaa seengaknya masi ad wktu laaah..mngkin..

mmm 6tahun..uda lama juga yaa,hehe uda lama berkutat di hal yg paling g cintain.tp klo dpikir-pikir apa sii yg uda g dapetin slama 6tahun ini(mm maksud gw prestasi yaa, klo hal-hal laen ga usa diomongin lg,,bjiiiibuuuuun!ahaha).bs dblang sampah,,cba aj 6 tahun gw ikut taekwondo seumur-umur itu cma pernah dpet medali 1x
,,perunggu pula,,
,,mending dri prunggu,,
,,dri seng pula!!halah mencreett klo kta bem boyke.
..hehe klo dibandingin ma temen" gw diTeladan,bs dibilang gw yg pling "jongkok" prestasinya,tiap tanding kalah,tiap tanding kalah pertama,tanding,,klah kdua.gtu2 aja trus (U/Junior"jgn diikutin yak,hha).
kdang gw ngerasa lelah..
kdang gw ngerasa cape..
pernah jg ngerasa bosan,jengah..udalaa ngapain jg gw terus2an disini..
(mending drumah ngadem,dngerin musik,,maen gtar).
tp klo gw ngliat kebelakang lg,,bnyk hal yg uda pernah snior2 kasih ke gw
..tp"apa sii yg uda pernah gw persembahin ke senior2 gw?"..
n klo ngliat orang2 dkitar gw.
junior2 gw..dgn smangatNya mereka berhasil "ngeGampar"muka gw disaat gw uda ngrasa cape:),temen2 gw yg slalu ngisi tawa gw dgn warna.
hh gw pngen turun lg. . . . .turun tanding trus Berhasil,hhe tp sanksi gw klo nliat rutinitas gw ky bgini(hha cita2 yg perlahan-lahan terbenam rutinitas).
yaa tp seengaknya masi ada wktu laaa,,mngkin hehe,,toh klo ga bs jg stidaknya gw bs nliat junior2 gw nerusin cita2 gw.

Tomodachi#1..

"Dan semua manusia hidup,bukan karena mereka peduli pada diri sendiri,melainkan karena rasa cinta mereka kepada orang lain"


“Persahabatan berasal dari kata yang berarti “free”.seorang sahabat adalah seseorang yg mewujudkan impianmu dan kebebasanmu menjadi nyata.”


“Seorang Sahabat adalah seseorang dengan siapa kamu berani tampil sebagai dirimu sendiri”


“Sahabat sejati adalah Sahabat yang tetap berjalan bersamamu,meskipun semua orang meninggalkan mu”


“Sahabat akan tetap menjadi seorang Sahabat karena mereka tidak akan mencampuri kehidupan sahabatna”


“Sahabat pasti menghargai Prinsipmu”

“Sahabat yang selalu Menyapamu tiap waktu,yang selalu datang dan pergi,yang selalu memberi hal-hal kecil yang tak terduga,,ikut merasakan suka dan duka.”


(Membuat Kamu berubah.Kau memberikan uluran tanganmu kepadaku sampai batas kemampuanmu~ tetapi yang paling berarti adalah kamu selalu ada disana untuku.)

in loving memmory..

Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone

You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly

I never knew what it was to be alone no,
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting

Now I come home and I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see..

I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true
You were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

But now I come home and it's not the same no,
Feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone..

I'm glad to set you free from sorrow
I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you'll be here with me still

All you did, you did with feeling
And you always found the meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will

13 dec,,sbuah hari yg cukup membuat g merasa sbagai orang yg tdak dapat termaafkan selamanya..

My shadowed soul

"she's" name :shasa

Brand: Gibson

Type : Les Paul Black custome(myowncustome)

Body :one wood

color: Black with white List

Pick Up :2 humbucker Neck-Rocktron, bridge-seymour duncan(hmm yummy)

Gitar listrik kesayangan gw,,coz cma ada satu-satunya n pemberian dri bokap yg paling gw jaga.dpet dri bokap pas g klaz satu sma(klo ga salah)dpet stelah menunggu sekian lama.hahaha akhirnya bokap ngebayar janjinya stlh g berhasil lulus smp,dan itu jg hrus pke syarat pula, nem g harus bagus(hhi thnx dad)
seenggaknya dgn maenin ni gitar g bs ngelepas kerinduan g sma bokap n ngebuka kembali memory2 yg uda pernah bokap kasih(mmm wktu bkap masi ad kerjaana cma lo cuekin^ ^").

klo ngomongin kualitas soundna hhe,,wktu g ptama kali ngetes soundna aj ud bikin g girang stengah mati,,nyeeengir aja karjaana didepan ampli smbil genjraaang genjreeeng(gtar listrik ky gini ap soundna?),,pickup bridgenya boo(coz diantara smua component yg ad di gtar gw,ini doank nih yg bikin gw miris nliat harganya)..seymour duncan siaalan!mahal amat sih loo bikin produk!.

in your eyes..

I can't count how long... but some time has passed
I wonder just how much I know about you?
Following along the map with my finger isn't doing too much
I notice your uneasy face, though you are hiding it :(

As though resisting the face paced day that will be tomorrow
Even though I run about, it's strange... my heart sketches you

When I looked up, radiance filled the sky, without fading
If only we could have been like the sun, shining all the time

I want to be held by your scent... for just a little longer
The air outside pulls at my collar, then I turned my back on it

My sighs, blurred white, tell me of the season
While repeating it all, suddenly I thought... why am I here?

I want to be by your side forever, gazing at your smile
I want to live each changing moment in your eyes
In that one scene, forever colored in gentle hues
In order for us to be closed, I want time to stop forever:(

Weew!hari panas,,puasa panas!!

jaaah!!knp stiap puasa msti diselingin gtu ma hri yg panas!!
(jgn2 cma prasaan gw,ahaha).(_ _")
kerongkongan kering didalem,,panas dluar, mantaabs!!+nliat muka tgar,,Cupleas dah gw!!
(mxudna mati dah gw!haha sorry gar jus't kidding)
hari yg mnyebalkan mnutup mnggu yg menyebalkan..mo kluar uda kya vmpir nliat matahari jd kicep2 nyalinya..

eh btw biar kata jakarta panas eddaaan bgini,klo sore mnjelang sunset(klo pribumi sii blangnya maghrib) cool abis,sabtu kmaren wktu g djalan ma bandot mnuju snayan,,matahari tu bner2 gede(kliatannya?),merah ke jingga2an gtu warnanya,trus langit tu bner2 bersih!absolutely clear!,,hehe ga jelek jg di suatu hari yg panas!!

are you agree..?

pernahkah kau merasakan?
pedihnya sendiri merasa tak berarti..
terus menerima tanpa pernah memberi
pernahkah kau merasa kecewa dan terluka
tanpa ada yang mengerti..
terus bertanya.. adilkah hidup ini?

jangan pernah sampai terlintas
dibenakmu untuk berhenti disini..
yakinlah kau kan temukan
dan gapai smua


serahkan pada yg kuasa
dan teruslah berusaha..
dan percayalah saatnya kan datang..